I don’t know how to start
Or where to find my words
The hold on these burning sensations seems to be engulfing me now
Once upon a time I was better
Perhaps, now I’m good
But am I good enough to write better now?
They said, ‘don’t use inconspicuous words’
I guess I stopped it
And then someone said that maybe you shouldn’t rhyme that much
Following the trail I reached where they said,
‘Don’t try to be too technical’
Oh my goodness, where am I now?
The pillars that supported me once,
Did I have to forsake them all for t’ sake of all?
I wondered once upon a time
And now I wander that I wonder no more
My grammar is bizzare
And rhyming scheme has this azar nadir
Have I stopped being the poet I thought I was?
I don’t feel like writing now,
And if I do, it’s just some basic stuff that’s been reprocessed a hundred times over
My lines are no more short and have no brevity
They are uneven
Why do you think I must write the way you think?
The way you want me to?
Why do you all have to suggest something?
And tell me how alienated I write?
Is this alien to you now?
Do you find it extremely poetic?
Do you find it sweet and pleasing?
No, I bet you’ll find this stupid
Piece of shit, you say?
Not something very impressive?
Banal? Oh, I’m not conspicuous.
Shit, I did it again.
What has happened to my art?
Wait, I was filling your colors in it.
Find this good enough? I’ve incorporated what everyone says in one single poem with no metre or rhyme.
Look at this prose, is it a poem?
Look at this poem, is it a poet’s work?
Look at my rhyming scale, metre, brevity, overtly laid alphabets.
I swear, it’s distorted.
Or maybe it isn’t.
Judge this one too.
Is this poem too long for you to read?
Is there too much going inside of me?
Flowing out, have you read it this far?
It’s some stupid creation, no?
But it’s my heart right now.
It’s my head right now.
Do you like it?
Do you like how I write now?
A poem of another naive poet.
A jumble of conflicting cataclysm of my selves.
Tell me something now
Let me be stupid again, a little bit more.
Are you an expert?