A Yellow Afternoon

Wind of the noon
After a silent Monday-bloom
Quiet noises of silence
Storms of stillness
With a hymn of loneliness
Sing me a lullaby of your eyes
Filled with sadness of life
Sight that parallels worldly lies
And warm sun that shines
Like a skin made of gold, just gold
Like yours in a world of burning coal
And smiles of all the bees and stingers
Go in vain without your childlike Joy

These quiet streets like your laughter now
Make me feel the world’s absence of itself
Like a Sunday afternoon without kins or friends
Neither enemies to call my own for cruel help
Waning like withering flower petals
Like those lips that shiver forever
No embrace that’s better than cold metals
An aloof, solemn, non-damaging fever
The sadness of summer wind plays that music
Of your slowly drowning heartbeats
Which felt once like a carnival of colors
Bursting, firing, burning, drumming
It fades like a white from white

There that time when it was okay
When your heart wasn’t a child’s play
I never knew that we are made of burnt clay
And now all that we have is sand like Arabia
And feelings like a grass waiting for rain
I could cry enough but tears are vapor
And I see it dying far from my hands
On the dunes of sorrow you sit
Like it’s the end of a never-ending tale
That starts all over again
In a different world
Where we will meet again
To play our worldless void of pain


Edges of two hearts

Hidden under the branches
The damage of its face
Spent its short forever
In the spring chase
A banyan turned in despair
To a shy tree
The roots swallowed, a critter
Lingered in storm spree.
A keeper came to water
More than his bucket did bleed
Eyes that sparked of weather
Of gloomy cloud Creed.
No brown, no green, no rustle
Bluer than the deepest seas
Bent and weak, did splutter
And met the mourning breeze.
Keeper called for sun
That hurt his blistering feet
He tried to hide the sorrow grey
And fulfilled the promise meet.
Banyan rustled as it to visitors
To speak of birds and wind
And showed that it was better
That critter was up no sleeve
Keeper dwelled in its shade
Believing with eyes shut
Thinking that it was a shy tree
Kept his misery to his gut.
And as it was a full moon
He left to go his home
And made a promise to come again
When he was done with his roam
The path gleamed, he fell out
And saw the blooming spring
How trees were green and brown
But his was a blue in cringe.
Banyan mourned and howled
For critter that it loved
Left nothing for it to grow out
And for keeper, that it curbed.
The day came when they met
Again in scorching heat
Banyan was breathing its late
And noticed his blistering feet
They cried again in summer
Keeper saw the critter leave
For Banyan was shading away now
Keeper wet its root as he did weep.
Banyan died amidst the despair
And love it could not keep
Keeper lived his forever in moment
And slept the last at Banyan feet.

You are like that outer space
I could fancy but I can’t reach
I am like that sermon
You could hear but you can’t preach

You are like that moon
That shines upon me
I am like that dark night
You don’t wanna come out into

You are a hurdle in my breath
You are a skipped beat of my broken heart
You are that smile I can’t have anymore
And I am your forgotten start

I feel like air you don’t notice
A sadness you won’t ever embrace
A crack in sidewalk you don’t count anymore
You run in my head like blood does race

How I fell this way for your laughter
Every fear you hold hereafter
And I can’t share your life
I lay awake like forsaken chapter

This sorrow that I hold is heavier than the love
You will give to someone else someday
And I lay here pretending that you love me
Like a ripen broken pot of burned clay
And it will hurt me some more
It will forever hurt me some more..

I Keep Thinking

The moment I saw him everything was a mess in my head
Everything in my brain jumbled
I knew not how he felt but I felt a lot
And I hugged him like I was to leave the earth
But he didn’t hug me back
I think it was his OCD
Or maybe he didn’t feel enough
Or Maybe the hug wasn’t perfect
Or maybe I wasn’t what he thought
Or maybe I did it in a rush
The green felt so vibrant and the sunny day felt cool
I walked alongside him and teased him as I could
Every time he talked I just watched his mouth
That voice was perfect, that face was surreal
I couldn’t help but notice how he carried himself
Or how he ate his food
Or how he looked at me with those eyes
Or how he laughed with those lips
Or how specs hanged on his eyes
Or how he curved his lips
Or how I held him in my eyes
Or how beautiful were those lips
I couldn’t stop thinking
Because that was the only time I breath around him
I couldn’t stop thinking because
He decided not to leave my head
How we wore the same shirts
It couldn’t be coincidence
How could he not think the same way
Or maybe he ruled all of my sense
How he smiled at me still hasn’t warded off the hypnotism
But he said he wanted to kiss someone else
Not knowing I had kissed him
A hundred times in my head in those four hours
I felt burnt when he looked at the other guys when all I looked at was him
How I tried to touch him just to feel his skin
That desire held me upside down
His name felt like a perfect noun
I could pronounce all day and won’t be bored
It’s hard for me to keep concentration on one thing
But he held me like gravity
I sat around him and it made me sing
We always thought that we were meant to be
How could I be left alone thinking the same
The last time he came to drop me off the city
I thought he would be gone
But he stood there until my bus went off
And when I looked outside and saw him standing there
All clicks in my head went off
How tears welded up for he felt real there
When I hugged him and he hurt me
I still felt here
Or how he said it wasn’t meant to be
Or how he looked perfect in yellow
Or how he told me to do things I didn’t understand
Or how he never talked again
Or how I kept waiting
Or how he kissed my best friend
Or how he fell in love with someone else
Or how I kissed someone for the first time in my head when I saw him
Or how he never felt the same
I keep thinking
How he fought with me all the time
I keep thinking
He never thought.