Orion I see

I heard somewhere, you hated me
I often grow out of breath
For the life that i’m made to live
Has worn me gashing death
You say you still see me dreams
I see nothing but childish whims
You thought 11 is 28 for me
I wish you knew I had twenty six
You tell reasons why you left the door
You never knew why I dispatched
Kept words for i had said enough to more
Never left you for i had other way latched
Too much to take, too much to scorn
Home has me growing mad
For 3 years and still I do mourn
Your blog I see the sad
Only if you knew I still say to him
My best friend that you are the best
If I had a chance i’d marry you
But that’s left to fate’s unrest
You say you would come to see me once
Not in my sight and then you’d go
Do you know I still compete with you in runs
I always plan to come to your home
Not with any hidden motive or scheme
Just to fulfil my promise
That I made to someone I loved the most
‘i’d come home to see you smiling’
I mean no rebound, you are still there
You owe the place you made
I’d have given life if you were here
Infidel you claimed me tad
Yes I didn’t love you as much you do
I made enormous mistakes
But the care I have in for you
Can fill a million lakes
Say I never were complete till I saw you
But text and distance had got me wrecked
You didn’t understand why I cut us two
this type of communication had us checked
I miss someone else more than I miss you
You are right, probably yes
But ever loved more someone else than I did you
You hold a wrong impress
I told the world the most beautiful tale I wrote
You and me seized in Blank Space
Peter is always up in my throat
I still love Peets more than any face
Truest love I still feel is Peets I fell for
I’ll love till my dying breath
I have lost my soul, my creation, my goal
Since a year i’m in the wreath
I hope, I wish, I could make you see
What life I am accustomed to since birth
Each day is a target, since I am to live
All I yearned for was some love
Those who say you spoiled the best of me
Don’t know me i’m quite sure
Though I lived rough when you were here closer to my knee
I became the man I can adore
I can write this poem endlessly
For words will never end
I wander to love aimlessly
Someday to you i’d be to amend
I wish you to see happier than me
Maybe with a guy and kid
Hope you find your true ecstasy
And forgive me before we bid
I know i’m the worst ever happened to you
You know that probably well
I still search you around on social sea
To your pics I often dwell
I would stop here now for you shouldn’t weep
Those tears have fallen much
I can’t cry you know but i’d have cried tonight
I think I should have felt your touch
And I hope you find home you truly belong
Don’t let your love for love die
I’d find my home too, maybe i’ll
I’ll see you in real to say goodbye.


To my dearest friend,
I stood by your bed last night; I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying you found it hard to sleep.
I spoke to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
“It’s me, I haven’t left you, I’m well, I’m fine, I’m here.”
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today; your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today; you tend it with such care.
I want to re-assure you, that I’m not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my hand on you; I smiled and said, “it’s me.”
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It’s possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, “I never went away.”
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew…
in the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over… I smile and watch you yawning
and say “good-night, God bless, I’ll see you in the morning.”
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I’ll come to greet you and we’ll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out…but
then come home to me.


Dropped out on the floor of glass
And Frictionless roll away to meadow
Then Passed out on a frozen grass
To Fiction bred thirst of libido

I need you cause you need me now
Nothing could ruin the stars
Crossed over and burned in the vow
Oh I think of past, think of start

Ocean blue your eyes prevail around
There’s no proper end
Stacking pieces in desperation round by round
I do it to see you on every bend

Clouds have arrived and i’ll be moist by this blunder
Miss me if you see a thunder